Ugh.....it has been one of those weeks!

I just hate it when the week starts off rough! On saturday I woke up with the worst bladder infection of my life. I would take labor any day over the pain I was feeling from this bladder infection! OMG it was horrendous! I had the pain, frequent and intense urgency to pee and blood. Yep, I had it all. I called the doc on call and he told me he would call something in for me that I could take while I'm breastfeeding......if I couldn't take it then I didn't want it. He agreed that it wouldn't be a problem and that I would feel relief by Sunday afternoon. Yeah, didn't happen! I was just as miserable on Sunday as I was on Saturday. I thought I'll just give it time and I'll feel better on Monday. Yeah, once again wrong! Monday I found myself in an all day meeting 2 hours from home. I bet you can guess what that was like........yeah, Amy kept leaving the meeting every, oh 1/2 hour or so to pee. I seriously thought about taking one of philip's diapers with me, but then thought better of it. On my way home I called the doc to see if there was anything they could do, I can't keep living like this. They squeezed me in for the last appointment of the day to give a sample. She told me I have one of the worst infections she has ever seen....I have heard this before, in fact almost a year ago. I usually don't feel them, so the fact I felt this one told me it was a doosie! Then she gave me the good news....."you can't breastfeed on the antibiotic I'm giving you." and looks at Philip in his carseat. I told her that wasn't going to work. He needs his milk jugs on a daily basis or he screams. She said I take the medicine or she was going to admit me to the hospital. So needless to say we are on our second day with no milk jugs. It has been wonderful....sense the sarcasm in that statement. He didn't want the bottle last night or this morning and both times cried like he was being beaten and broke down and took it looking at me like I was a terrible mom. I don't know how much longer I can do this! In my mind I'm already telling myself that I'll stop the pills friday morning then I can feed him Saturday afternoon. But that is a long time from now! I don't know that we will make it until then. I do have to say though that I feel wonderful. I thought for sure I had a kidney infection. My back was sore, I felt sick to my stomach and I had the chills. Today, no pain or blood or frequency. I'm a new woman I tell you!

Philip got weighed last week Wednesday, he was 20 weeks old and weighed 16 pounds 10.5 ounces and was 26 inches long. He is my lean mean machine. He rolls completely over, grabs his toes and sucks on them and giggles all the time. Last night we discovered that he is ticklish. If you tickle him by his chunky thighs he giggles and squeals in delight. It is so cool! Now tonight is the bad part......SHOTS! I sure hope he doesn't have a reaction to them. He is also eating sweet peas and sweet potatoes now with his cereal. When you put the spoon by his mouth he says "mmmmmmmmmm." He just loves his food! My baby is growing up!

Some of his first's.......

Here is a pic of Philip on his 1st ever day of fall....



Here is the first time he has held a bottle for me.....



I told you he is growing up!

4 months old! WOW

My little man is four months old! I can't believe it. I say man because he doesn't need his mommy so much anymore. Just for his feedings only mommy can give and when he goes to sleep at night and wants to be cuddled. Otherwise he is mr. independent. This morning my alarm went off at 6:30 and he was in his bed playing and talking to his bumper pad. Not a care in the world. I turned on his mobile and I don't even think he noticed I was there. When I was done with my shower I went in and got him to feed and I was greeted with the biggest smile. I am so in love with him! I have had these very sappy moments lately where I am just overwhelmed with the feeling of being blessed. As I look back over the 3 years it took us to have him, I get choked up. Not just because of the struggles we went through, but because of the struggles that others are going through too. I can't imagine not being a mom and it hurts me to think there are so many others out there that may never know that feeling of being truly blessed. Philip is so precious to me and I sometimes I find myself crying at work, like I did so many times during the 3 years we tried for him. Now my tears are because I'm blessed and miss my little guy like crazy. To all of you that are reading this and still in the trying phase I send you strength to keep trying and just know that you too will be a mommy someday. Don't give up on your dream.

Here is my future Spartan!

I know, I know.....

I'm really bad at this posting thing. Bad mommy! My little guy is growing up to be quite the little man. I can't believe how much he has changed lately. It is just crazy to think that he is going on 4 months old. He can giggle, when he wants to, which is usually directed at Daddy. He can roll from his back to his belly, which he does at night when he wants to go to sleep and pretty much only sleeps on his back now. He is starting to cry now when people he doesn't know talks to him or tries to hold him. This quirk can go away as far as I'm concerned. He also can blow bubbles and make noises with his tongue, raspberries! What a stinker he is I tell you. He is getting to be so much fun now and I just love spending the day with him. On Tuesday though, that comes to an end. School officially starts and mommy has to bring the buggy to the sitters. We did a trial run on Monday and then again tomorrow and mommy hates dropping him off with a passion. He does good there and I really like our sitter. I actually used to watch her when she was little.

Here are a few new pictures of my little man. Be prepared for some cuteness!

Here is Philip with Daddy when I came home from the store the other day.



He thinks he is so cute in his hat! What a cutie pie!



Here is Ryan with his grandpa who is holding Philip

Funny Story...

For those of us that are short, you will appreciate the humor in this story. If you are tall, you won't find the story as funny.

A couple of Sunday's ago I had to work. When I'm at work, Ryan keeps buggy to spend time with him one on one. It was a beautiful sunday and Ryan wanted to go outside and water the garden. Philip was having an off day, and wasn't in the mood for being fussed with but wanted to be held. I hate days like those. We have a front snuggli that was given to us that fits Ryan perfectly since he is so tall. The bjorn isn't as good because he has such a long torso. Ryan is about 6'7" for those of you that don't know him.

I wasn't familiar with the snuggli, so I put it on and fiddled with it until I got it to snap on right and put Philip in it to make sure it was latched right. I took Philip out and said to Ryan, here put this on. I left the spot hooked up for his legs to slip through. This goes around your waist, blah blah blah. So he puts it on and hooks it up. I hand him Philip......you know where I'm going with this, right? He lifts Philip up and I hear "bonk" followed by a soft cry that leads into a scream. What I heard next had me laughing until I was crying. Ryan says...."Oh, buggy....Daddy's sorry! He didn't know the ceiling was right there." Didn't know the ceiling was right there? What? He hands me Philip to calm down and is very upset that he had hurt his son. Philip was fine, he had the lightest mark on his head and wasn't really crying out of pain, just crying to be a pain. Ryan bends over and kisses Philip on the head and says "Daddy loves you buggy!" Philip in return says "oooh glup aaaggg." My interpretation of that is "D$%# dad, WTF?"

Ryan sat there for a moment and then proceed to tell me it wasn't funny that he had "hurt" his son and I shouldn't be laughing. After I explained how "I didn't know the ceiling was there" sounded to a short person, he found the humor in it too. Now when Philip looks at something crossed-eyed I can blame his brain damage on his father's neglect to remember the ceiling was there!

I'm a bad mom!

I can't believe that I haven't posted in so long. I'm just terrible at keeping everyone up do date on my little man. We are doing wonderfully well. He is growing like a weed now. We went to the doc on Wednesday and at 10 weeks he is 13lbs 5oz and 23 and 1/4 inches long. He is in the 90th percentile for his weight......apparently mom has good growing juice! I can't believe how much weight he has gained! 4lbs in 4 weeks, not too bad for a breastfed baby.

I just love being a mom and he is such a good baby. He doesn't really cry, and that's a good thing because mom doesn't like to hear him cry. I get teary eyed too! He goes for his shots on Monday and dad is going with us. I know it's good for him to cry, but still makes me sad to hear it. That is why daddy is coming with us.

Here is a few new pics of him, that really aren't that new anymore because he is growing so fast.



Here he is with daddy. He doesn't fit in this outfit anymore....it's one of my favs too!

7 weeks tomorrow!

I can't believe that Philip is almost 2 months old. They really do grow up too fast! We got some professional pictures done. The website is www.absolute-photo.net and go under customer galleries scroll down to maatman and the password is philip once you click enter gallery. They are way too cute. He was so very crankie that day, I'm surprised that the photos even turned out. The pictures with the ones and the tax deduction onsie is a gift for my sister the accounting major. The onsie of course was a gift from her!

My little guy has started to smile now at people. He of course smiles more at Ryan and just whines at me. I'm his food supply, so no smiles for me! He also started to rub his eyes when he gets sleepy, which is too funny. His hand is so little and so is his eye, so it is quite funny to watch. I'm trying to get him to sleep in his crib, but that isn't going to well. He was sick for a little while with a stuffy nose and ended up in the carseat to sleep for too long I think. Now when I lay him down in his crib, he wakes up after a few minutes because he is moving I think. The carseat keeps him from moving around too much and the crib doesn't. I'm thinking of putting his boppy in the crib and trying to get him to sleep in that. I can get a 2 hour nap out of him if I put him on his belly, but don't dare do that at night. To be honest I'm not ready to put him in his room yet. Isn't that terrible! Here is a picture of him, it isn't recent but cute!